Random Post| Its After 3AM...

February 28, 2012
My heart is weighing so heavy right now. So much has taken a tole on me in the past 15 hours that its just hard to fathom. You know the feeling you get when you lose a loved one or when you read something that makes your heart just drop? Well, for the past few hours I've been releasing tears. Off and on. Someone I thought was close to me sees me as an enemy. Why? Blaming the world for their unhappiness. Making spur of the moment decisions not thought out but making those that love them suffer. I'm torn. I give and offer so much of my time to people that it's sad to come to the realization that they are weak. It's never good to be a follower. You'll more than likely be lead into a trap. I'm afraid. I wish I could reverse the clock of time. I can't. I wish I could stop the decision of this person from taking place. I can't! This situation cuts me so deeply that if I allowed my emotions to completely consume me, I would probably go into cardiac arrest. I'm not getting into details but I'm deeply saddened. It all happened so fast. It's hard to believe its actually still happening. Why?!!!!
"Anything to take the pain away..."
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  1. God got you. Pain is only weakness leaving the body. It's only gona strengthen your heart and condition your mind to recognize thing like this so that you can prevent them from happening again. But whatever you do don't allow this to harden your heart. Apples are apples, people are people. One bad apple spoils the bunch but one bad person just means one less you have to deal with. But truly i feel your pain.

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    1. Thank you so much. You're very right. It's just so hard to accept and it hasn't really hit me yet. I don't want to become bitter but this situation just gives me no peace. I will try my very best to stay strong. I will.

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